I realized I am not the best person to talk to right now, I have my own issues of time travelling too fast (fast forward) that people haven't even breathed yet, and I am already there wrapped in my own world of misery. And the things I anticipate aren't always pretty. Aren't a bit pretty, actually. Hah! So yah, I have been a selfish piece of shit act to my friends the past days (it's embarrassing, it really is! :P). But I guess this experience made me stronger, if not, I at least learned something about myself.
- it's ok to be afraid
- that I think too much, it gets tiring
- change will come, not just to others, but even to myself
- i've got a Peyton Sawyer-ish tendency that I have to fight back
I've had my fair share of histories, so I can't help but feel that history can easily repeat. But then, there is nothing more comforting than an assurance that the true friends wouldn't leave, proven even after all this mess I created myself.
And after that, there is nothing more comforting than being able to just accept, and then just go on with life. Like I've always did before.
Ciao, hasta la vista, BV! I wouldn't miss you one bit! :)
Happy Anagon Playlist, May 2011:
Thank you loves for your contributions! Still open for other cool tunes! :) <3
The Little Things by Danny Elfman - suggested song by Denise from my last post
All At Once by The Fray - suggested song by Reg from my last post
Firework by Katy Perry - makes me hopeful
Born this Way by Lady Gaga - "I'm on the right track, I was born to survive"
Three Little Birds by Bob Marley - suggested song by Honey from my last post
This is Not a Test by She and Him - suggested song by Krissy from my last post
My favorites:
Angel by Akon - makes me feel my worth. Like I'm glowing or something, haha.
Lullaby by Shawn Mullins - in the end, it's gonna be alright. :)
"I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I wont tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad."
- The Perks of Being a Wallflower
To Tamems: Thank you for the way you dealt with me during the tough times. <3
4 Comments
uy tey anung ngyayare bakit ka nasasad? =( wala ko maisip na song kanina pa hayy cheer up kei? *hugs hugs
ReplyDeleteThank you Teh! :) Your comment is ok na, no need for suggestions :) <3 Its the thought that counts ba, hehe ! :) Ok nako, I think! :)) <3 Thank youuu!!!
ReplyDeleteIt's always liberating to express thoughts on our blogs. :)
ReplyDeleteWhatever it is, I sincerely hope you're feeling a lot better now! Cheer up, Ana!
I REALLY love that quote from The Perks of Being a Wallflower. I LOVE THAT BOOK. Kinda sucks that it's now being turned into a movie, because I kinda like the idea na konti lang tayo nakakaalam/ nakagusto ng book. I'm selfish like that haha.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, naiirita ako pag may nagsasabi sa akin na, "ay, yan pinambili mo ng shoes na yan, pangkain na ng isang family." I mean, I am not being a meanie and all, pero alam mo yun, I worked hard for the money, I want to enjoy it because I feel I earned it, walang basagan ng trip. I am thankful I have the means to earn money, no need to make me feel bad that "I" earn money x_x
I'm glad you're feeling better now. See you tomorrow sis! Gameface on!
Your turn! Always excited to read your comments! :)